thinking out loud: flashback

this isn't a true flashback. today we are going back in time to . . . yesterday! i began my crazy purge of thoughts, but didn't have a chance to finish. so for your reading enjoyment, i give you thinking out loud: flashback style.

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1. i have been up with the roosters (if i had one, i imagine we'd be waking at the same time) all week, in an attempt to acclimate to my new schedule. it is nothing major. beginning on monday, i will be starting work one hour earlier, at 6:00 am instead of 7:00 am. that requires getting up at 4:30 am instead of 5:30 am. i used this week to ease into the change by setting my morning alarm back by half an hour. in truth, it hasn't flipped my world upside down. i am naturally an early riser. also, the change was self imposed. no reason for my body to try and fight it. the only aspect that is really giving me grief is adjusting my bed time. it has been so tough not reaching for my book to try and fit in a quick read. truth be told, i put off turning in early twice this week to satisfy my reader's thirst. so that is still a work in progress.

good meowning!

2. i received these two beauties in the mail on wednesday! chelsea from A Fit Little One has an Etsy shop, called Raw Mermaid, where she makes and sells lovely beaded bracelets. her jewelry is well made, and i adore the classic simplicity and go-with-anything style of her line. as you can see, these two lovelies quickly became my new favorite arm candy!

shop RawMermaid here.

3. packing and preparing the house for our move has taken up residence in my mind for the past couple of weeks. i have very mixed feelings about this move, which is strange coming from the girl who practically grew up a gypsy, and carried on the tradition of not staying in one place for too long into her adult life. this time around, i had really hoped to stay in one place for the next year and a half, while we save up for a down to buy our own home. i guess staying just isn't in the cards this time. c'est la vie and hakuna matata!

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4. this weekend is forcing me to break out of the little hermit shell i've been in for the past couple of weeks. i suspect the oddly cool summer (and by cool i mean temps in the 90's and low 100's) and lingering monsoon rains have left me teetering on the gloomy side. for the past few weeks, i have intentionally and unintentionally been avoiding social engagements. not because i am angry with anyone. simply put, i have just wanted to be alone. while i know that me time is essential to my overall happiness, i have a history of letting my mental clouds drag me down. secluding myself is always how it begins. luckily for me (and unluckily for my noggin's cumulonimbus companions), our good friends  (the dude and i) are having an engagement party this saturday. i forget how, but i was roped into being on the planning committee a month ago, and with that comes the responsibility of being there for them. i am embarrassed to admit that part of me is not looking forward to it. i feel like a real jerk thinking it. the sunny side of myself however, is ready to be a good friend.

5. every time i think of next wednesday, i get a little nervous. august 20th begins my name change process! not only am i giving up my maiden name and taking the dude's last name, i am also correcting the spelling of my first name. have i ever mentioned that i have lived 28 years with a misspelled first name? i am sure many would say that it doesn't matter (what’s in a name? that which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet), but in my case it does. the names on my birth certificate and SS card are spelled slightly differently, so i have never been able to get a passport. and this girl wants to spread her wings! okay, that may be a bit dramatic, but i would like the option to jet set to exotic locations on a whim. plus, i imagine it will be heaven to have my first name spelled the same across all legal document platforms. i can't wait! and yet, i am so nervous! i know that i won't be losing my identity, but giving up my last name and changing up the way i have spelled my first name my entire life is no minor deal to me.

6. my pain levels have been high all week, which means taking it easy. my body held up through a few very fluid vinyasa flow yoga practices, but cardio hasn't been an option. the pain coupled with fatigue has me feeling like a bit of a zombie. on top of that, my stomach in full rebellion. even safe foods have been upsetting my sensitive tum. rest. relax. recover. that is where i am shifting my focus.

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how was your week?
what has your mental weather been like lately?

peace. love. :)
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